Being high for me is literally like living out a magnificently animated and inventive utopia in my head. I can be anything or do anything I want and my mind will take me there and tell me it’s amazing and thrilling. Thoughts turn into this endless string of majestic adventures that take me on journeys and send orgasmic pulses through my entire body. My mind becomes a fucking brilliant helicopter, transporting me to any destination I desire. Any idea I come up with can be cut up into a million more ideas and stories that are waiting for me to think up. I could literally be lost in my head forever, because on drugs I can live out any lifestyle or glorious experience. It is literally a “trip”, a vacation through time and space that brings nothing but deep wisdom and elevated, dazzling feelings.
When I listen to music, I feel as though i’m actually living, breathing, and experiencing it. I become the sounds, I become the emotions. I analyze every word and beat, and take note of every aspect of the song. There’s some songs that I literally feel as though I fucking dive into their substance and swim through them, or my mind takes an elevator down into a spiraling, swirling staircase of dazed dreaming, and I am one with the sounds. It’s weird, when I listen to music with meaningful beats and strange, quirky, deep music, I feel powerful. I feel as beautiful and delicate as that music of choice, and I feel as though i’m in a film and people are watching me and envying my glory. I have such a strange mind, there’s this place I go to when I hear music and it actually feels like my head falls back into a wonderful, almost psychadelic hole of fast paced images and colors, strewn together in my brain to create an amazing outcome that I will then relate back to that song. If I hear gangster raps or sexual songs I become a hungry, sly, mysteriously sexual predator who can instantly make any creature want me. I become a chill ass nigga who can spit beats like no other, I can imagine myself waltzing through a private club while the room spins around me, I can hangout with the top dogs and they wont ever be as fly as me, in my head. If I listen to anything along the lines of dubsteb my mind fucking plays out every damn beat, every drop, and my whole body pulsates with the feelings and intensity of it. It’s a little taste of being high to me. Blare a song in the car and cruise down the road and it’s literally almost as if i’m on drugs.
I want everlasting excitement and adventure. I want to be interested, and interesting. I want colors and flavors that go on forever. Nights and days that blend together, stringing magic and passion into one glorious swirl of life.